爱的价值 The value of love

2nd December 2015  /  life upon life

爱,是等价的,也是无偿的。小时候,只懂得品味与享受他人给予的爱,认为理所当然,我应该得到那份爱,可真正谈起来如何去回报于所受到的爱的价值的爱,便会变得茫然无措,甚至感到自己的渺小与自私,更谈不得“滴水之恩涌泉相报”的爱了。不懂得给予爱的人,是容易被孤立的。等到真正失去了爱、自己的情感被架空。前所未有的孤独感会一涌而上。反省发现自己错在何处时,会感到后悔,为什么自己会吝啬于支出极细小微妙的爱。直到那一次,我才明白爱存在的价值。那是一个寒冷的冬天,风吹在脸上就像刀割,虽然坐在教室也能感受得到,那顽皮的风儿从门缝里钻出,带来刺骨的寒。外面下起了雨,地面泛起的水雾就像是梦魇,让我意识到了现实——我还在感冒,并且我没有雨伞。在教室里祈祷了一天,希望雨早点停下,可噩梦难以挥去,现实依旧残酷。站在教学楼下面,放学铃的最后一个音符停止了,看到外面下的越来越大,心里恐惧感倍增,感觉明天得太阳不会再升起来。就在我急得快哭的时候,后面一只手拍上我的肩膀:“**同学,我有伞,正好咱们也一路,就一起走吧。”看了看天,看了看那把大伞,我觉得救命稻草就在眼前,爽快的答应了。走了很久,走过了他的家,我说:“你家到了,不会去吗?”“你不是没有伞吗,怎么,你还想感冒?”被他一说,我不好意思的说:“那我们快走吧。”到了我家了,我请他进来喝杯热茶,暖暖身,他答应了。他进了屋,一边喝着茶一边刻意遮掩着什么,我看过去,他那半边肩膀已近湿了个透。我真要问为什么,他赶忙一句:“不早了,我回去了。”我没拦住,看着他在雨中的背影,心里有点慌,更多的是担心。第二天,他去医院挂水,我去看他。我说:“谢谢你昨天送我。”我知道他怕我淋湿才多倾了一点伞,才弄湿了肩膀,感冒了。我能理解他对我的关怀,此刻也深知爱,也是无偿的。张子璇Love is equivalent and free. When I was a child, I just taste and enjoy the love from others, I took it for granted and I thought I should get the love. I was bewildered, even weak and selfish when I needed to pay back the love I got. People who do not know to give love is easy to be isolated. They will feel so lonely if they lost love someday. They will regret and reflect themselves, why they were too selfish to not give love before. I realized the value of love until that thing. It was a cold winter, the wind blew on the face was like a knife cut, we could feel biting cold even sitting in the classroom. It was raining outside, the ground flush water mist liked a nightmare, which let me be aware of a reality - I was in a cold, and I didn't have an umbrella. I was praying the rain stopped early for the whole day, but the reality was still grim. Standing under the teaching building, school bell rang. The rain was severe, and I was afraid just like the sun would not rise again tomorrow. A hand slapped my shoulder as I would cry: "hey,* *, I have an umbrella, and we have the same way to go home, let’s go home together." Looked at the weather, looked at the big umbrella, I think it’s like a resort before me and I agreed. We went for a long time and passed his house, I said: "your home is here, you can go home now." "You have no umbrella, isn't it. Do you still want to have a cold?" He said. I was embarrassed to say: "let's go." Arrived at my home, I invited him to my home and have a cup of hot tea, he agreed. He entered my home, he was hiding something while drinking tea deliberately. I saw carefully and found a half of his shoulder was wet. He said:” it’s too late, and I will go home”, when I want to ask why. I couldn’t stop him, had to look at him leave in the rain with a bit of flurried and a lot of worried. The next day, he went to the hospital to receive fluid intravenously. I went to see him and I said: "thank you for sending me home yesterday." I knew he was worried I was wet, so he gave me more umbrella, he finally caught a cold. I can understand his care for me, and also know that love is free.Zixuan Zhang