I’m a left-behind child, and I’m not afraid. 我是留守儿童,我不害怕!

2nd December 2015  /  life upon life, highlight

I don’t know how many left-behind children there are in the world, but I do know they can’t be a minority. I’ve been one of them since I was in grade two. I used to feel disgusted with the term. It somehow means you are deserted by your parents. I remember how I envied my classmates each time when their parents came and picked them up after school. I looked at myself and I felt sad. 

At first, my father was away throughout the year, then one day he said he had more work than he could deal with, so my mother left me alone and went away with my father. It’s kind of funny to recall how desperate I was in the early days of my mom’s departure. When my mom was home, I had nothing to worry about just like the kids of similar age. She woke me up every morning and the clothes would be ready by the bedside. Sometimes she would help me get dressed. But when my mother was away, I felt there was no support in my life anymore, and everything was a mess. I was in a bad mood, I did poorly in school, I got angry easily and was unwilling to talk to anybody. That was a dark period without sunshine, which nearly turned me into another person. 

Later on, my mom seemed to have noticed my problems. She wrote me a letter. She was very apologetic and wrote a lot of stuff. Having read the letter, I cried for a long while. I came to realize that my life shouldn’t be like this. I began trying to do something I hadn’t done before. If I failed, I would restart and do it again, gradually I can handle it easily. Never stop trying. You’ll never know what you can do it if you never give it a try. Where there is a will, there is a way. Now I’m doing well in school and my parents’ business is fine. 

We all have gone through the most difficult times. Don’t retreat when confronted with difficulties, which are chances to strengthen yourself and stimulate your potential. You should always remember that actions speak louder than words. Though you can’t avoid difficulty in the process, the happiness that you will experience is beyond comparison when you succeed in realizing your dreams. Don’t forget the old saying: where there is a will, there is a way. It’s for you and also for me. Don’t give up on your weaknesses. Since turning weakness into strength is a real success.This is my story - a story without beautiful turns of phrases. It’s just my story and some of my ideas. I hope it will be helpful to you.

Xinyue Zhang

现在有多少留守儿童,我不知道,但是我知道一定不会少。而我就是他们中的一员,自从二年级它就一直伴随着我。曾经的我一度反感这个词,留守儿童嘛就代表着父母不在身边,记得每次放学我看别的爸妈都来接他们时我多么羡慕啊,再看看我鼻子总会一酸。起初,只是父亲常年在外,后来老爸说忙不过来,在家陪我的妈妈就也去了。还记得刚开始我那要死要活的样,现在觉得搞笑极了。以前妈妈在家时,和大多数同龄人一样,什么都不用想。早上妈妈喊我起床,衣服帮我准备好放在床边,有时甚至还会帮忙穿一下。妈妈一不在身边,感觉好像没有了生活支柱,什么事情都做不好,心情不好,成绩不好,脾气暴躁,不爱说话好像变了一个人。一段时间好像在一团黑暗之中,没有一丝阳光,后来妈妈也发现我的问题,她写了一封信给我,满含歉意,说了许多,我看着信哭了许久。那一刻就突然通了,知道这样是不行的。我开始慢慢的做一些以前不能做的,失败了就再站起来重新出发,渐渐地那些事做的越来越顺利,对于我来说已是小菜一碟。所以不要不去做,不做怎么知道你自己不行呢,有志者事竟成。现在我的成绩呀还算可以,父母的生意也还行,我们都度过了那个最艰难的时候。遇到困难不要退缩,那是锻炼自己,激发潜能的最好时机。多少借口都不如赶快行动,过程虽苦不堪言,但是成功实现自己目标理想时你的乐也是无法比拟的,那时候回头想想也没有多苦。别忘了有志者事竟成,这是送给大家也要送给我自己,对自己的薄弱决不放弃,当薄弱变成了强项才是真的成功。这是我的故事,没有华美的词藻只是些我的故事表达一些我的想法,希望对你们有帮助。

张馨月