I’m a left-behind child, and I’m not afraid. 我是留守儿童,我不害怕!

2nd December 2015  /  life upon life, highlight

I don’t know how many left-behind children there are in the world, but I do know they can’t be a minority. I’ve been one of them since I was in grade two. I used to feel disgusted with the term. It somehow means you are deserted by your parents. I remember how I envied my classmates each time when their parents came and picked them up after school. I looked at myself and I felt sad. 

At first, my father was away throughout the year, then one day he said he had more work than he could deal with, so my mother left me alone and went away with my father. It’s kind of funny to recall how desperate I was in the early days of my mom’s departure. When my mom was home, I had nothing to worry about just like the kids of similar age. She woke me up every morning and the clothes would be ready by the bedside. Sometimes she would help me get dressed. But when my mother was away, I felt there was no support in my life anymore, and everything was a mess. I was in a bad mood, I did poorly in school, I got angry easily and was unwilling to talk to anybody. That was a dark period without sunshine, which nearly turned me into another person. 

Later on, my mom seemed to have noticed my problems. She wrote me a letter. She was very apologetic and wrote a lot of stuff. Having read the letter, I cried for a long while. I came to realize that my life shouldn’t be like this. I began trying to do something I hadn’t done before. If I failed, I would restart and do it again, gradually I can handle it easily. Never stop trying. You’ll never know what you can do it if you never give it a try. Where there is a will, there is a way. Now I’m doing well in school and my parents’ business is fine. 

We all have gone through the most difficult times. Don’t retreat when confronted with difficulties, which are chances to strengthen yourself and stimulate your potential. You should always remember that actions speak louder than words. Though you can’t avoid difficulty in the process, the happiness that you will experience is beyond comparison when you succeed in realizing your dreams. Don’t forget the old saying: where there is a will, there is a way. It’s for you and also for me. Don’t give up on your weaknesses. Since turning weakness into strength is a real success.This is my story - a story without beautiful turns of phrases. It’s just my story and some of my ideas. I hope it will be helpful to you.

Xinyue Zhang